Bismillahirahmanirahim
~rezeki yang x terduga~
Ok, I have been working after graduate and this year is the
fifth year I’m working in the same company. I have thought to further study but
I never thought of really furthering my study. On mid of 2018 my company open
scholarship for employee and I just try my luck. Since I am still single so it
worth a try as I don’t have many commitments yet. So here we go. Zasss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Applying the
scholarship
To apply the scholarship I need to send my motivation
letters and that is the hardest part. You need to know :
Why you want to further study?
How it benefit you?
How it benefit the company?
What is your plan? The course you want to take? Which university?
So I write my motivation letter with these guidelines and
let Allah decide which are best for me. I don’t think I’ll further study using
my own money so when opportunity like this come, why don’t I try it?
Shortlisted for
interview
After 2-3 months I guess, the shortlist come out and I was
invited to have interview with 3 head of departments. One Belgian, one India,
one Chinese and one Malay which is me. I can feel the spirit of Satu Malaysia plus
one Europe in the room hahhaha
Honestly, I prepare a lot of thing before the interview
session. I did some research on what I want to if I get the scholarship. I ask
my senior which is now a senior lecturer in my previous university if he have
any idea on how can I further my study. He told me to do research with him as
the research will use software and no lab or chemical needed. XD So I can still
working and studying at the same time.
I also refer to the previous company scholarship holder. He furthers
his study at UM in taught course. He said it will be tough since you need to
really balance your work and study. It going to have classes, assignments,
study group, quiz, exam and small research project but it confirm graduate since
we have the timeline. He told me if I took research then they timeline will
rely on my result. I need to get the result so I can graduate.
So I was in dilemma but that doesn’t stop me!
I draft the pro and cons and continue searching in internet
for information on the classes and everything. When I was about to take the
taught course suddenly the UM admin told me that they cannot confirm if the
will be weekend classes or not. So if the classes are on weekday, how am I going
to split my body to go to work and also class?? Haha Finally I just go with the
research. Below is the pro and cons of both mode.
|
|
Taught course mode
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Research mode
|
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Pro
|
-diverse knowledge
-easy if hardworking
-has guideline
-relate to my purpose (jeng3)
-readymade knowledge
|
-flexible time
-skill toward phd (huh? Seriously? )
|
|
Cons
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-too much subject
-exam, quiz, assignment, mini report, research
-class on weekday
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-uncertain of getting result
-only focus on one topic
-distance (johor)
-away from SV
-do everything by myself
|
So after I look at the table there are more pro on taught
course compare to research mode. But whenever I do toward the taught course is
not really working. I call UM to get info about class but I was told that they
can assure me that there will be weekend class. So it will be like 50% yes and
50% no. So how am I going to decide to go to UM??? What if after I register
there is no weekend class??? Plus, you know when sometimes you can feel like
this is the sign for me to not choosing this path. It is like everything is
hard.
So I did some
searching on research mode in UTM. Surprisingly there gonna be two compulsory
class to attend. One research methodology class, another one is elective class.
So how am I going to class if im working??? It is fulltime study!!! So there is
80% class will be on weekday. But after further searching, I come to know that
the research methodology is only for 4-5 days and the elective can be taken at
UTM KL. So it is like Allah is making way for me on this path. But yet the
process is tough. I need to call, e-mail and searching for all this information
MYSELF!!!
And all this was present to my interviewer on 14th February 2019. I explain
everything to them. All my plan.
Choosen ONE
Sometimes when you really give your best, you can feel like
everything will go well. I try not to think much of the result and just let
Allah decide for me , which path is good for me. So on 20th February
2019 the result is out!!! I was called again this time with HR to get my
result. Alhamdulliah, all praise to Allah I get the scholarship. I was
speechless. Because I have beed to 2-3 interview for job position but fail so
don’t give much attention to this but wow. Alhamdulillah.
BUT THIS IS NOT THE HARDEST PART!!! THE HARDEST PART IS
AFTER I GOT THE SCHOLARSHIP. THIS IS WHERE ARE ALL THE MENTAL BREAKDOWN, LOSE HOPE,
ALMOST GIVE UP HAPPENS…..
….to be continue….
p/s; love yourself ,appreciate yourself…
