Process to get the company Scholarship

                                                           Bismillahirahmanirahim

~rezeki yang x terduga~

Ok, I have been working after graduate and this year is the fifth year I’m working in the same company. I have thought to further study but I never thought of really furthering my study. On mid of 2018 my company open scholarship for employee and I just try my luck. Since I am still single so it worth a try as I don’t have many commitments yet. So here we go.  Zasss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Applying the scholarship

To apply the scholarship I need to send my motivation letters and that is the hardest part. You need to know :

Why you want to further study?

 How it benefit you?

How it benefit the company?

What is your plan? The course you want to take? Which university?

So I write my motivation letter with these guidelines and let Allah decide which are best for me. I don’t think I’ll further study using my own money so when opportunity like this come, why don’t I try it?

Shortlisted for interview

After 2-3 months I guess, the shortlist come out and I was invited to have interview with 3 head of departments. One Belgian, one India, one Chinese and one Malay which is me. I can feel the spirit of Satu Malaysia plus one Europe in the room hahhaha  

Honestly, I prepare a lot of thing before the interview session. I did some research on what I want to if I get the scholarship. I ask my senior which is now a senior lecturer in my previous university if he have any idea on how can I further my study. He told me to do research with him as the research will use software and no lab or chemical needed. XD So I can still working and studying at the same time. 

I also refer to the previous company scholarship holder. He furthers his study at UM in taught course. He said it will be tough since you need to really balance your work and study. It going to have classes, assignments, study group, quiz, exam and small research project but it confirm graduate since we have the timeline. He told me if I took research then they timeline will rely on my result. I need to get the result so I can graduate.

So I was in dilemma but that doesn’t stop me!

I draft the pro and cons and continue searching in internet for information on the classes and everything. When I was about to take the taught course suddenly the UM admin told me that they cannot confirm if the will be weekend classes or not. So if the classes are on weekday, how am I going to split my body to go to work and also class?? Haha Finally I just go with the research. Below is the pro and cons of both mode.

	Taught course mode	Research mode
Pro	-diverse knowledge -easy if hardworking -has guideline -relate to my purpose (jeng3) -readymade knowledge	-flexible time -skill toward phd (huh? Seriously? )
Cons	-too much subject -exam, quiz, assignment, mini report, research -class on weekday	-uncertain of getting result -only focus on one topic -distance (johor) -away from SV -do everything by myself

So after I look at the table there are more pro on taught course compare to research mode. But whenever I do toward the taught course is not really working. I call UM to get info about class but I was told that they can assure me that there will be weekend class. So it will be like 50% yes and 50% no. So how am I going to decide to go to UM??? What if after I register there is no weekend class??? Plus, you know when sometimes you can feel like this is the sign for me to not choosing this path. It is like everything is hard.

 So I did some searching on research mode in UTM.  Surprisingly there gonna be two compulsory class to attend. One research methodology class, another one is elective class. So how am I going to class if im working??? It is fulltime study!!! So there is 80% class will be on weekday. But after further searching, I come to know that the research methodology is only for 4-5 days and the elective can be taken at UTM KL. So it is like Allah is making way for me on this path. But yet the process is tough. I need to call, e-mail and searching for all this information MYSELF!!!

And all this was present to my interviewer on  14^th February 2019. I explain everything to them. All my plan.

Choosen ONE

Sometimes when you really give your best, you can feel like everything will go well. I try not to think much of the result and just let Allah decide for me , which path is good for me. So on 20^th February 2019 the result is out!!! I was called again this time with HR to get my result. Alhamdulliah, all praise to Allah I get the scholarship. I was speechless. Because I have beed to 2-3 interview for job position but fail so don’t give much attention to this but wow. Alhamdulillah.

BUT THIS IS NOT THE HARDEST PART!!! THE HARDEST PART IS AFTER I GOT THE SCHOLARSHIP. THIS IS WHERE ARE ALL THE MENTAL BREAKDOWN, LOSE HOPE, ALMOST GIVE UP  HAPPENS…..

….to be continue….

p/s; love yourself ,appreciate yourself…

Unexpected stage of life

Bismillah...

Hurm lama tak tulis kat blog. Tapi kali ni rasa i should record my life so here is it...

Lepas 5 tahun grad and working, now im back becoming a student. Is waiting for matric card right now so i guess I’ll spend some times writing here. Going to update everything later. 

Stay tune for next post k!!!

Assalamualaikum....

Asslamualaikum 2016 tahun masihi

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

wow!!! woww!!! wowww!!! sat ja dah 2016... post utk 2015 tiga...wow!!! busynya ai... pasni kena rajin menusli balik la...opsi!!! menaip.. ok fine benci rasa mcm gedik pulak an duk opsi opsi... (muntah)

So conclusion 2015 aku :

-masih harta xbanyak
-xbeli umah lagi

-ofcoz badan xkurus lagi but makin menaik ada la

-muka berjerawat pulakkkkk, mgkin stress kerja barangkali

-saving haram xda

-masih single not yet album lagi... target pun xda sbb malas dah nak feeling2 kat mana2 laki, perabis masa aku.

-keimanan yg makin going down (this one really awlful ok!)

So everything is so bad right, its like nothing going right because they all want to go left so what should i do? otoke hosso? shenme? uwe yo?nandekure?

but still im being grateful for still having my family in complete set, alhamdulillah and hopefully in years and yearssss after they are still with me insyaAllah or please let me go first before my family if im still unmarried because im not a strong lone ranger . T_T i need my family... huuuhuuu

Oh ya, bonus and increment ni opis aku xgitau2 lagi. aku dah gusar dah, 2016 org ckp kos makin meninggi... aku harap sgt leh bertambah gaji...dlu nak jadi cikgu kak aku xbagi padahai depa increment straight tiap2 tahun 200 cmtu...subhanallah...aqilah jangan pertikai rezeki Allah, aku basksmash hang satgi naya ja... sabar2....fuh!

ok nak sambung kemas barang semak baq hang!!!

nak kogsi gambar 2015 and lil bit of early 2016 skit la....layanss zasssssssssss

Dugaan rumah sewa

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

First time skali dpt keja mesti la cari lah sewa unless tmpt keka sekangkang kera dari umah makpak kita kan. So gigih la cari....

Umah sewa pertama:
Aku berkongsi bilik ngan kwn yg sama keja. Small room rm600 so kitorang sekepala tuan umah charge 300 ka 350 tah aku x igt sbb memori hitam kan. Dia iklan ckp fully furnished...mmg la brg2 ada tp tv zaman bila yg besaq leh wat aquarium ikan pastu xleh guna pun. Katanya xpenting pun. Ok xpa. Tp fridge dia yg freezer tu rupanya xleh freeze kan makanan pun. Letak nugget xbeku,pastu basi lagu tu ja. Sian kwn aku tu. Bukannya beli guna batu, guna duit kot. Rugi la. So kitorang pun bergaduh secara halus diwassap dan lastly kitorang blah. Kak housemate yg sewa skali pun lari bersama. Tinggal lah owner umah yg menipu itu, dah la ngaku umah sendiri padahal dia pun menyewa. Manusia2. Deposit kompem burn...hurm

Umah sewa kedua:
Kat condo yg sama tp blok lain. Yg ni bilik sorang satu. Aku, kwn aku n kak housemate. Aku nya blik kecik, and when o said kecik i really mean it. Setiap malam tido aku akan monolog sendirian. Cmni la kit tidoq dlm kuboq. Serious kecik, dah la brg aku byk. Sincerely saying aku agak stress, mgkin aku ada penyakit xleh duk tmpt sempit. Dan 4 bulan kat situ kak housemate kena transfer keja balik penang. So aku pun lari menetap umah kak aku pada awal januari 2015.

Umah sewa ketiga:
Yang ni aku xbayaq sewa la tp just huluq skit kat kak aku. Sbb minyak ngan tol pun kena bayaq sbb jauh skit dari opis. 4bulan aku duk sini. Ok ja tp xbest la. Kak aku dah kawin, aku nya aurat kena jaga. Kdg2 penat gak bertudung 24 jam. Lgpum aku au duk umah family dan ganggu saat romantik depa kan. So selepas 3 bulan aku pun decide nak pindah.

Umah sewa ke empat:

Okay yg ni susah beno nak cari. Ada satu kewasan ni rumah sewa harga bajet so aku excited nak duk. Leh save duit tp alang nak dpt je xdpt. Org len dah tmpah la, umah tggi nak mati la. Tiba2 kak housemate tu kena transfer balik pj. Dia tau aku duk umah kak aku so dia ajak duk skali. Mula2 kitorang nak sewa umah ni dah bayar deposit sebulan kwn yg india sorang ni xjadi nak duk. Dah burn duit kitorang. Skali tuan umah xmau bg balik. Dah la ni pun sorang lg melayu yg mengaku umah sendiri padahal dia sewa ja. Apa la nak jadi depa ni. Pastu kak housemate tu dpt umah kat condo lama tu, dia ajak aku. Blik small tp x mcm dlu, dia besaq skit. Aku pun ok la. ,,500 sebulan pun boleha la. Tp nak save duit susah la skit. Hurm

Aku xtau apa yg akan mendatang. Keja dah 10 bulan tp saving masih lg 0. Aku redha ja. Nasib baik Allah pinjamkan mama abah yg memahami kesulitan anak mereka ni. Tp deposit kali ni aku xpinjam duit parent dan aku end up rm200 dlm bank utk sebulan. Sekian. Tunggu la gaji masuk hujung bulan ni. Huuuuhuuu

Moga Allah permudahkan masa depan ku dunia akhirat.

Kahwin?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Aaaaa blur...sgt blur dan resah bila kat opis dah smbg bab kahwin, balik umah pulak ada lg yg ckp tntg kawin...siap tanya taktik ngorat...waduh!!!

Wa masih single, dan so far xda tanda nak tunang apatah lg kahwin. Laki yg bakal suami pun xtau duk kat ceruk mana ni... ada ka patut minta tips kat ai. Ni yang sad ni.

Huuuuuuuuuu

Aku dah tua?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Alhamdulillah masih diberi pluang utk hidup...wah... Lama nya xpost kat sini since berkerjaya ni. Busy bnor (sgt!!)

Ingat x lagi post 'aku gedik' tu? Haha rupa2 nya perangai xberubah la pulakkk..

Disebabkan ke'takpandaiaan' aku ni bleh plak aku p amik selfie gambo ngan manager aku?!!! Baik punya perangai, behave mcm bulan depan nak benti keja, padahai duk mengadap muka dia smpai la samada dia blah atau aku blah...huuuuuu

Setiap kali jumpa ja kompem aku rasa segan smbil fikir ke'takandaian' aku...tp xpa la, sbb aku pun dah xminat sgt kat dia... Skang aku tgh practice jadi lone ranger.... Walopun mcm xda kena mengena tp aku tgh relax2 xyah nak suka kat org sgt...perabis masa... P selawat lagi bagus dari duk gedik2... Apa punya perangai la...

M.A.F.A

Next Stage of Life

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

~dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah dan Maha Pengasih~

Welcome to the next stage of your life

ok, it's not like im going to get married what ever related to it. It just that i have ( nearly) finished my study life in UTM (hope so). HAHAHA banyak benda berlaku masa nak hantaq thesis baq hang.. Margin lari la, spacinig x betul la.. ini la itu la...pergh kalau check diri sendiri camna kita solat gaya tu, mmg kompem 100% insyaAllah diterima solat.... dia punya spotcheck la...tip top!!! amboi... nak grad katakan... feww!!!

ok lupakan thesis kejap...nak cita yg berkenaan ngan tajuk skit. Masa tgh exam week/month aku kena panggei p interview kat one of international company yg wat sub company kat malaysia.. ni pun thanks kat senior aku sbb dia yg email kat aku keje kosong tu...sbb ni bukan vacancy yg open or public.. yg dpt vacancy ni pun aku, manap, paan ngan hanip ja... nmpk x betapa tertutup nya vacancy ni...hahaha pastu manap ckp dia ajak ewan cah... disebabkan kak b pun slalu sebut2 tntg conversion engineer ni aku pun ajak la kak b..yeay!!! pastu  ain ada skali, so aku pun ajak dia...lalala kita xtahu rezeki ni milik sapa kan... aku ingat lagi pas interview tu pergh punya stress sbb x sempat wat test dia untuk finishing 3D model completely kan...mcm2 setan duk cucuk aku, ye la kan aku ajak kwn aku, so

"mcm mana kalau depa dpt hg x dpt? sedih x?"

pergh kemain ko setan... tp

"kita xtau, mungkin kita ini ialah jalan org tu menemui rezeki nya... dan rezeki kita pula mungkin nnt akan di bawa oleh org lain"

lega juga aku...  otak jahat ngan otak baik aku jenuh duk fighting bak hg.. tapi instead of being positive n doing nothing, aku mmg terus jadi baik dan extra meminta-minta la kat Allah (kalah doa minta jodoh dan A exam gitu)... ya la, it is a job ok... bukan senang nak minta keja der, tambah2 dlm bidang aku ni... T_T

and.... ALHAMDULILLAH... i was accepted...  (^___^)9

ada kawan aku yg dpt dan ada yg xdpt....dan seperti biasa, kita xtau rezeki kita kat mana.... so it worth trying everything... dan alhamdulillah la aku try minta keja ni... alhamdulillah alhamdulillah...

Interview

malam sebelum interview...ya Allah kalut la aku pilih baju la, tudung la... ya lo, i want to present myself with confident what... giving best first impression for them... and that required lots of stress...haha and i did made my little sis and oldersis stress too...haha

masa test tu, pergh 30min dia bg, aku pun relax2 a wat selamba, rupa2nya masa cepat berlalu and i didn't make it to the finish line...haha masa tunggu nak interview jenuh aku doa supaya depa tgk betapa detail nya aku cuba cantikkan model first smpai x sempat nak abiskan model nombor 2 tu... pergh!! and for my interview session i did my best la to persuade them...gitu...

pastu masa menunggu result tu mmg x lalu mkn minum mandi even smpai nak study untuk management pun xda perasaan... hebatkan penangan dia? kalah org putus cinta tu...rumate aku jenuh duk sedapkan hati aku... huhu dah la result kluaq sama hari ngan paper management... tgh hari aku still xdpt call, dah gelabah satu badan dah.... sbb stress sgt aku pun tidoq.. pastu nasib baik aku terjaga waktu hp bunyi.. terpampang kat screen hp "nama company"... pergh!!!!!!!!! terus angkat...dup dap dup dap... alhamdulillah the promote me the job... huge smile and thankfulness...dah kuaq skit ayaq mata kegembiraan gitu... terus call mak aku gtau... T_T pastu kawan aku sorang lg dtg bilik siap pegang phone tu!!! dia pun dapat jugak... tudia kemain excited kami... pastu wat exam terus halai balai la kan...haha sabaq je la..

The Day

Disebabkan ain dpt cari umah paling dekat ngan ofis, so kami p jalan kaki je la..hahaha awai tu pi, pastu lepak kat lobby sbb takut nak naik atas.. tunggu 2 org lagi kwn..  dah smpai kami pun naik la atas... pastu ada briefing tntg company sket dan kena la sign2 contract skit... rupanya2 kami lain2 department... ain wat kaki, manap wat yg otak kot, aku xsmpat amik tau lagi, aku ngan ewan cah wat bhagian muka... stress bak hang... sebab muka ni byk soft bone dan berlekuk dengan gigi yg bersambung dlm image...pergh!!! aku bakar juga ct scan tu... susah gak la nak wat 3D model... tu bru segmentation, x wat design utk guide la...pergh...masa tu aku baru sedaq tahap difficulty keja aku... dah la benda yg kita buat ni akan diguna utk surgery... mau nya silap kan naya ja org yg wat tu... risky jugak rupanya... huhu

bru 4 hari training dah rasa kepedasan keja ni dah... pergh... tidoq awal kot, kul 10 dah tutup mata dah... masa second day bapak ngantuk gila sbb aku tidoq kul 12mlm...sumpah pasni mmg aku tidoq awai la..hahaha penat otak der...dah la mengadap pc ja... mmg awesome 'sgt'... haha

apa2 pun i need to love the job if i want to success in it. :)

Fighting!!!

May Allah Bless Us All....